Hello, everyone.
Literally, I don't understand why my family think I'll gonna be a rich man, living in a giant house with a lot of money. I never wanted this, I'm a simple guy who just want to discover world, see the sunrise and stars at night. My brother is a lawyer, so he's wonderful to my dad and mom. He's perfect, has blue eyes, has a "proper" job, he's tall and christian. I want to study computer science while I do my home office job, travelling world, but I don't know what to do... I'm very lost at the moment, I have friends who support me, but it's diferrent. Those people raised me and I feel like trash, a tiny can in front of them.

youll find your way my son

As life goes we'll all find our ways, you too, just because you perceive yourself wanting something different from what your family has doesnt mean that they'll think any less of you for wanting something else, comparing yourself to others is never a goodthing as it always leads to either pessimism or egotism, but chin up king theres always a day after tomorrow.